And then it began to rain…….
Rewind 20 minutes.
I was sitting on my back porch with my Bible and devotional in hand, phone ready to play my favorite praise music. It was time for my daily quiet time again. So I read my Bible. I read
my devotional. I was about to say a prayer and finish with my favorite song, when all of sudden I realized that I had unknowingly made my quiet time a routine. I had taken too much control of this time with the Lord.
In those next moments I spent on my back porch, I reluctantly pushed my de
votional and phone to the side. I let go. I wanted to hear God’s voice without the drowning noise of my phone and the weariness of my quiet time “routine.” I wanted it to just be me and my Savior, even if just for a moment
And then it began to rain. Every controlling instinct of mine tried to well…..take control. These instincts kept pushing me and saying, “Rachel, get out of the rain. Go back inside.”
Yet, my Savior told me to stay.
So I sat there. I felt so vulnerable just sitting there, so I took shelter under the tree branches overhanging the porch.
And then it began to rain harder. The tree I had relied on no longer provided much shelter. I was getting wet.
But then Jesus showed me why I needed to stay, why I needed to get wet and uncomfortable for a moment. You see, my Savior knows me better than I know myself. He kept me in the rain that evening so that I could see what He saw: the barrier blocking me from His peace. This barrier was my desire for control. I had tried to take control of my time with the Lord. I was always trying to control everything. I even tried to control the rain when I slipped under the tree.
I needed to let it go in order to receive His peace. So as I sat there in the rain, I surrendered my longing for control to Jesus.
Then I leaned back, away from the shelter of the tree, and lifted my face toward the sky. I let the rain hit my skin and felt His grace wash over me. The rain was refreshing. I could breathe again. And as He broke the barrier that I had formed, He gave me His peace.
So I sat there and let it rain.
Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.
In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.