Wow, what a life we’ve been given to live in Christ. A life where He comes up alongside us and desires to be near us. A life where our hearts are constantly pursued by the Creator of the universe because He longs to take us from glory to glory. A life where the old is washed away and the new comes because He is a God who makes all things new.
This is the life I’ve come to know and praise God for this semester.
I’ve known His presence so intimately during this season, perhaps more intimately than I’ve ever known before. He met me in my messes and showed Himself to be so worthy.
During every challenge and change and victory, I can joyously say in confidence: I’ve known Him here.
He met me where I was and called me into a deeper intimacy with Him, one where I have to learn to trust in Him with all my heart because He is the only Foundation that remains firm through every season.
So what has this semester looked like for me, you may wonder?
It’s looked like a lot of time spent on my knees wrestling with true freedom and this idea of perfect love. It’s looked like a time of seeking God and uncovering the mysteries of His love–a time of questioning and wrestling and resting and worshipping and believing again.
He’s been bringing me into a season of victory by showing me the depth and power of His love.
In all my attempts to grow closer and deeper in my walk with Jesus, I had forgotten the power of His love.
God’s love is the kind of love that can take a sinner fallen short of His glory to heavenly places. It’s a love that identifies His children with a new name that is all-powerful. It’s a love that silences the lies of the enemy all for the sake of filling hearts and minds with whatever is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, and praiseworthy. It’s a love that casts out fear, silences the voice of condemnation, and brings us into a peace that surpasses all understanding.
His love unfolded before my eyes in the most beautiful ways as I pressed into Him this semester. Still at first, I was reluctant.
God, I’m not worthy of Your love, I cried.
Yet, I love you still, he whispered.
And man oh man have I found freedom in this statement. His wasn’t calling me to prove my worth or to accomplish wonders or to climb unclimbable mountains. He was simply calling me to sit at His feet and believe in His love again.
I’m going to be honest, there were times where I really wrestled this semester. I found myself really struggling at times to understand God’s love for me, especially when I felt like everything was out of my control. BUT in my wrestling with unbelief and doubt, GOD CAME up alongside me and wrestled with me until we won the victory together. WITH HIM by my side, the lies of the enemy were silenced, fears were brought into submission to His holy name, and pride was overcome for His glory and my good.
We walked through sleepless nights and wordless prayers and everything in-between until I believed in the depth of God’s love for me again.
From the outside, it may have looked like nothing was happening. But on the inside, God was calling my dry bones to life again. The enemy was fighting hard against the Truth. Yet my God is stronger and was fighting harder and we won the victory together.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned this semester, it’s this: Our sin is deep but God’s love is deeper still.
In everything, God’s love is deeper still. And sweet friends, I pray that the enemy will never convince you otherwise.
I didn’t see my desperate need for my Savior to fight for me, but He did. I didn’t recognize the lies of the enemy, but He did. And in all His love, He broke barriers and silenced those lies and overwhelmed me with His love and the beauty of the Gospel again.
What a reminder of what Christ did for us those many years ago when He entered the world as a babe: We didn’t see our need for Him, but He did. And in all His grace and endless love, He came. He came and extended abundant life to those who would lose their lives in Him.
And because of this pure love, I rest knowing I don’t have to earn my salvation because it’s already been earned for me. I rest knowing that, even in my weaknesses, I am covered by His blood. I rest knowing that I don’t have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with my weaknesses. No, I have One who has been tempted in every way, just as I am, yet was without sin. I have One who lived a blameless life and offers me this life in rich abundance. I have One who intercedes for me at the right hand of God and enables me to approach THE throne of grace with CONFIDENCE, not because of who I am, but because of who my High Priest is–Jesus Christ, the Son of God. I can’t earn God’s love. I don’t deserve God’s love. But yet He loves me still.
God has taken me back to the very core of the Gospel: For God so loved the world, that He gave His only Son.
This is where our hearts find rest from condemnation, fear, shame, and sin. His love brought Him here and His love is still as real as it ever was–more real than the ground beneath our feet.
The world didn’t deserve Him. We don’t deserve Him. But yet, He loves us still.
And all I can say is hallelujah, what a Savior!